It's been a while

I am going to make another attempt to update my blog from my phone and hope that it does not get deleted again.

Since the last time I updated I for sure have had a ton of time to think about life. Even in the middle of my crazy schedule that I have been having foe the past month. My mind/heart still has a huge desire to want to travel. I did come to conclusion that I am not ready to actually move away though..perhaps in a few years I will be though. I was talking to bren the other day on our way to l.a about taking an extensive road trip next summer. She has always wanted to go to the south so that is something that is taking highly into consideration for next year. The goals I have for myself though are to save some cash so that money is not an issue. I feel like this is the perfect time in my life to be able to do som.ething like this without anything/anyone holding me back. Especially my career for that manner. I am looking foward to the rest of this year and all of next.

I have come to conclusion that I work really well with people but terrible at working for people. Does that make sense?

quick notes

1. I cant ever seem to fall asleep when I need to but when I cant sleep I have a hard time staying awake.
2. Hawaii is coming up at the end of next month so I want to loose 8-10 lbs before then.
3. I just watched 27 dresses today and it made me want to get married really bad. There is a big problem with that though Im lacking the guy haha.
4. I need to make at least 1200 dollars before the end of the month to pay my bills and credit card off. I think I can do it, I still have a while.
5. I should go to bed now I need to be up in the morning for a class..whoo hoo.
6. Speaking of class, Im thinking about taking a few different classes
7. Good night.

GO

Bren says go. Just go. Whats holding you back?
I guess I'm scared. Unsure. Feelings of being unstable.

Im living in my prime right now. I would hate for it to pass me and think that I did nothing with it.

lets travel

I seem to always get these ideas in my head to try to make an impact on the world in some kind of positive way. I feel like the more and more time goes on I still find my self in the same place and that would be fullerton ca. For a while I thought that I would stay in california. However as I talk to more and more people we are trying to figure some where else to be. I was convinced at one point that I was going to be moving to oregon..but i dont know about that one. My goal for next summer is to do some kind of missional work or travel throughout the us. Another thought is going to Indonesia for a few weeks to a month with a few friends.When I am remembered on this earth I don't want to be the girl that grew up in fullerton, went to church here, got married, had kids and is STILL here. I want accomplishments and Im not talking about financial ones. I want to be remembered as someone who LOVED the Lord and LOVED His people and made an impact on lives around me. It breaks my heart when people simply just dont have love in their lives. I want to be someone that could show that. Perhaps I dont need to get away to do that but for sure I am/going to be thinking about where I am to be lead this next year.

I apologize for my scattered thoughts but I honestly just dont get much time to write in here so when I do I know this prob. does not make much sense to people but thats okay. :) haha.

have a good one.

saaaaan diego

This weekend after I get off work on sat. I will be driving down to sd with bren to visit Tran. I must say that im super stoked on going and am excited to get away for a couple nights.