Mom

The time that it is most important in my life to blog is when I stopped. I am going to try to pick it back up but I don't know how well it's going to work out. The best way I deal with tough events in my life is to run and that is exactly what I have done when I stopped writing. I didn't want to have to deal with the thoughts about my mom being sick more than I needed to, however it's important for growth within myself and to properly handle everything.

Lately I have spent countless amount of hours at my moms house. Things are getting tougher by the day. She seems to be in more and more pain as time goes on, needing to up her intake on her pain pills. For a long time everything seemed normal but just a little bit difficult to walk. Now I can visually see that her leg that the cancer in is rapidly growing. We could have a moment where everything is good, everything is normal but the second I look down at her leg my eyes are flooded with tears forcing me to walk out of the room. I don't want my mom to see me sad or scared. It's important that our time is filled with loving each other in the best way possible. My mom has become one of my friends, which has been such a big blessing in my life. I know that God is constantly showing Himself to me because He knows I need Him now but it still is hard.
This very well could be the last holiday season I get to spend with my mom and brother as a family. I am learning as time goes on that people in my life are just so important to me and it's so easy to get lost in that in the midst of business and chaos. I don't want to loose sight of that and I am going to be the best daughter I can be in this time.

Friends, please continue to keep her and my family in your prayers.

I love you mom.