update #2

In this moment I am completely frighten.
It started off as a normal day at my moms but that only last about 5 minutes. She started to sit up so she could eat the little food that she was planning on, then suddenly was hit with the most excruciating pain that she has ever been in up until this point. She had an unexplainable look on her face with moans of pain coming out of her mouth. The first thing that came out of my mouth was screamed "MOM NO" and the tears did not stop for some time. For a moment I felt like I may be losing her real soon. I still don't know though. I feel like she could last a couple more years and the other part of me is not sure if she will last till the end of this year. She has more faith in this than I could even think about having. When her pain hit she repeatedly said "in the name of Jesus take away this pain and cure me". I know she knows that she is not ready to go. She wants to fight it the natural way. I firmly believe this is possible but I get overwhelmed with all the information there is out there that has to do with cancer. Some say its a death sentence and others say it's not as bad as you think. Who knows...
I am trying to have my head up high on this but it is harder at this point than it has been. I don't like to see anyone suffer in any kind of way at all. It breaks me down inside and I can't handle it.